The last Letter

No bs, this is actually real.

Mama,
First of all, I'd like to dedicate this letter to the wonderful man you hated so much, the man who gave me my final sense of independence and responsibility and gave up his life for me, Roy Afshin Shadid. Thank you so much for giving me this beautiful child I will never have, the child who would've always been a descendent of the love we had. Our baby died before it even got the chance to live, I'm so sorry i let you down. Roylin, even though you've passed away not so long ago I want you to know how much I love you, how much i fought for you, and how much i've suffered. The truth is that I never really got the chance to express how much I appreciated your existence. Even though you're not with me, part of you always will be because my heart will never forget you Roy, it will never grow tired de pensarlo( of thinking of you ), of swelling up every time it reminisces of you y de agonizar su perdida (and of agonizing your loss). You will always be the first man of my life, Roy, the man in my eyes, and the king of my world, and my heart will always grieve over the fact that your dead, your not with me, and your body was left to rot in a puddle of blood somewhere in Tel Aviv. Even if we are not together right now physically, your memory will live inside of me. You taught me how to be strong, and how to take responsibility for what we create. Y a decir la verdad, amor mio(To be honest with you,) A woman like me, in a world like this, being so poor, Isnt worth a thing. As for my mom, Realistically speaking, the truth is that having to face things the way I had to is really sad. All doors were closed on me when I needed you the most. I could've expected that from anyone, but you! You were my mommy, my friend, my parent! In the end, despite everything that happened, I finally comprehended that an easy life is never a good thing. In the end, What happens when a little girl gets kicked off her high heels too fast? She falls down, she breaks because she was never really taught to walk. The only way to be someone in this life is by staying in school and earning your merits with your own sweat and tears. In this world, the only thing us parents care about is providing a better life for our children so that in the future they can be better than us. Reality is really fake and full of hypocrisy, but the worst lie one can be told is that you'll never have to face your fears. The way you face your fears is what makes the difference. Whether you pass the test, or fail trying. Everything in this life has a price or a really ugly sacrifice. The best things in this life are priceless, not free. Please take care of my little sister and educate her well so that she may not make the same mistakes i made.. Love her, appreciate her, guide her, and please, don't ever walk out on her. As for you, little sister, listen to our parents and make them really happy. Give them the pride i was never able to fully give them.. Listen to our parents and stay in school. Please don't get mixed up with any member of the male body until the day of your wedding. A maidenhood is far more priceless than you can imagine. Once you lose it you also lose a special something in you.. a light that made you stand out from millions of women. When your older you'll know what i mean. Overall, life is about proving you can get up even when it kicks you down, and being happy with what you got. Life changes you on various terms of happiness. Remember that word, happiness. Without happiness the world means nothing, but with a little bit of happiness and hope, you finally find your personal paradise. I love you all like crazy.
<33; Goodbye.