I will try and analyze later, whether
random picked or not it sure caught my
attention
5/5

This is such a lovely flowing write.

I'm willing all my past to float behind me-
until they fade like colors of fallen autumn
and dew drops of early April.

^ This second stanza has me locked into the poem and wanting more. You have woven past memories together with autumn's display very well.

My lips speak to me and desire to make
new memories, memories that are not written
in the passing air
but felt in fresher blossomings;

^Yet with the 3rd stanza you offer something completely new about making new memories and it is a 180 deg. about turn but excuted well.

There is a lamenting tone to the poem, waiting patiently. I like it!

I know you said random thoughts, however this is a good stand alone poem.
Sometimes most of our poems are just that.
Blossomings needs an apostrophe blossoming's
The change of tense in this line suggests you need a semi colon after softly.

And maybe, someday, it won't be oxygen I will be depending on,
reining it in softly,
maybe I won't be the restless blanket that tumbles out of bed
at 2:45 am to find her love.

I like the term dry heart, most people would use heavy heart, bleeding heart etc.. nice to read something new to me.
Aren't dreams just God trying to whisper to you
that you don't need to be fixed?

I like this section, It's a nice thought that God could be whispering to you.
However some of the dreams I have had, I don't think it is God who is doing the whispering!!!
Just feels like it needs a little bit of structure, but that's only my opinion.
Thanks for the read.