Giving Up

Time to time I think of the possibilities I have in life
Of how many times the words "what if" came to mind
Leaving every thought in a big wonder
When finally between all my doubts, my fears, my decisions,
My dreams, my goals, I come with a solution;
Becoming part of something huge,
Of challenging myself to do something
That probably not a lot of people will dare to do.

And between tears, a lot of tears
I think again about all the things I have to leave behind
That probably in that moment I'll so regret
Because it became an everyday battle
Not with the world but with myself
That day-by-day I have to prove not to them
But to myself that I'm getting stronger
That I'm not here for them to make me
But most importantly neither for them to break me.
Probably I left to display to those who thought little of me
To see if they will someday have something good to say about my person.

I have never giving up, I have perhaps postponed but never gave up
Is too fragile from my part to do so
This is for me, for my future, to make of me an enhanced person
Escaping from the cell I was living within my self.

No one said it was easy, no one said I wasn't going to cry
But life it self is hard, and I'm living
I'm marching for a cause, for a purpose
I'm a fighter and when I fear I just look back and realize
That if I'm still living is because I survived the hardest trials
I will leave knowing that when I reach the end of every known light
And I'm about to walk to the unknown darkness
Having faith, is knowing that one of two things can happen;
God will give me a solid ground to land on
Or give me wings so I can fly.

Even if I weaken on my journey
I have my God to fight the rest of my battles.