The storm

When my tears are all the words
My soul wants to say.
When my feet do the walking
But my hearts wants to stay.
I look up at the stars and I start to pray.
I think of all the good and the bad that went my way.
Oh have mercy on me and let me breath.
Because my life is full of darkness and misery.
My friends are the key to the troubles ahead.
Its like holding and protecting a candle from a storm.
Like wishing for rain on top of a cloud.
Or wishing for pain on a operation day.
I've tired to wake up and see life as we know it
I've tried to be happy and joyful but blow it
I don't want to be sad but I know of no other way
I want to be loved but loved just turns away.
I want you to have my heart please take it with you
I want you to see me, hold me and be with you
But just like every other I long for more
Is this my happily ever after
Or am I still walking in the storm.