If Love Ever Exist

The last poem ill ever write is dedicated to my future wife.
It gets hard for me to sacrifice but for her I'd give up my life.
I don't wish for a better world.
I wish for a love so strong from a girl.
A girl that always helped me see the wrong in my hypocrisy.
I say one thing and do another.
If not for her id be a bother.
And that makes her the perfect lover.
If not for her my heart would wander.
Seeking a love that could never exist
Unless to her I bare witness.
And when she's gone I long and miss the same sweet taste of her soft lips.
They crush together and melt on mine.
Under the sun a taste pure and divine.
It can turn as sour as wine.
Something bad happens and no one is fine.
Tears pour like rain and we each take time.
You never see me and I pay you no mind.
Until one day I first awake and realize that I miss your face.
But then my heart begins to break because I feel like I'm too late.
Your heart belongs to someone else and in my mind I curse myself
Because I gave you half my heart and now they're constantly apart.
It becomes hard for us to feel
Because we try replace with sex appeal.
To heal our hearts and clean our wounds,
And try to give love more room.
More room to roam and room to breathe
Because it can't just live inside of me.
I can't just let it stay inside.
I can't just let it keep me crying.
I can't just let it slowly die.
My love for you will never perish , and every moment we've had I will cherish.
If my heart be full of sin you're the one that keeps me cleansed.
You're the one that keeps me whole.
You're the one that keeps me strong.
You're the one that has a hold on everything I truly love.
Though I know you've felt the same
I know you can't give this feeling a name.
I'll admit it does sound kind of lame
Saying I'm in love when it's just a claim.
But I love you deep down to my core
And not being with you is keeping me torn.
I miss the kisses we used to share and honestly I do care.
If love ever exist I know in my heart that I feel it.

Jay