If only

If only you could see
the agony and sollow
i feel
as if theres no way to shed
the deep feeling of desperation and helplessness
i carry on my shoulders
the bitterness, the emptyness
of a hallow heart
as if someone came and wiped my happyness
away leaving me alone
i feel as though im stomping and screaming trying to find away out
to escape the demoralication that is me
at the end of it all (or so it seems)
theres noone to blame but me
so accepting this will hopefully
be the next step in my journey
and i will once again be free