I feel so alone in this sick twisted world
So many sad smiles from sad little girls.
I thought one day I would see myself happy
But all I see around me is a broken heart and home.
I never thought I would hurt the people I held so dearly.
Too many burned bridges and white lines made me change.
Not only my self but my eternal soul
Is still battered and bruised from my own stormy rage.
So you tell me how to change myself.
From nothing to something?
Might as well be someone else.
Show me how to fix myself.
How to smile a real smile
And put this sadness on the back shelf.
Alas I cannot. Will not be someone else.
No fake smiles or tears.
Nothing but myself.
So if you will not forgive me
And keep the past where it is,
Then I'll have to go on without you
And leave it at one last kiss.
