I understand the pain and keep strong...keep going forward...something will give. Also know it's not your fault.

Oh sweet one, this broke my heart.
I know your heart aches for her..

the elegance of this piece is beautifully sad.. It needed to be written.. I adore this poem..
hugs you!!

I thought that mask
I once wore was
put away for good
you know which one
I'm talking about
we all wear it
from time to time

that porcelain smile?

yeah, that's the one!

- I think this opens the poem up in the simple way of exactly where you are taking the poem. The fact that you wear this mask, but you then suggest we all wear it, which we do. So straight away we can all relate to the idea of pretending to be ok when really we don't want to pretend anymore.

just when I thought
life couldn't get any better
someone came along
and just ripped my
heart right out of my chest
by disappearing with
one of my most
precious treasures

- I don't like the word "just" being used here. I see why you picked it, to show how quick this happened. But it also implies just as in, only. You could either leave it out, or change it to something like, harshly, mercilessly, vastly, to name a few.
This verse is so touching because you admit to life being sunny and worthwhile right before this happens, so it creates the impact of how it has went from one extreme to the next :(

it's extremely painful
and very difficult
to get out of bed
and deal with daily life
but I must
so on goes that mask
for the world to see
the happiness and smiles
yet behind it
the tears flow and
I feel nothing but
broken

- I like the last word being the title. I think it also sums up the poem and your emotions.

- I am glad you managed to write this out, although I think it is so sad you have this going on. I hope poetry helps you express the pain.

thinking of you always, please keep writing. x

I can feel the pain but in time it will get better. It makes us stronger. Stop blaming yourself. Keep writing, you are doing a wonderful job.