Can't Pretend

The world it crumbles silently
The walls cave in inside of me

Which direction I can't see
I am blinded by the lies I seek

I just wanted happiness but its so far away
My nights are bright with the light of day

Things are not as they seem opposite of what I need
I feel the numbness tingle through my hand
If I feel it, is numb what I am

Selfish greedy and cant pretend
I want to love but I can't bend

Is it wrong to go along
Smile when I don't belong