Aside from this being truly one of the most heart-wrenching pieces of poetry I have ever read, I just want to extend my sincerest condolences to the friend this was written for. I couldn't possibly begin to imagine.
I wish I'd read this one first..it gives me more of an insight into your other poem. The thing that really kicked me in the gut was your opening line for I too had this jokingly said to me and I was all smiles each time. I went out and bought such a soft teddy the day I found out...neutral colours of course, I had cast on the first baby-jacket I was planning to knit for my first grandchild when, all of a sudden my happiness was cruelly pulled away from me and yet...I hadn't really gotten used to the happiness and it was over. I hate to think what this family is going through right now, especially the parents who have gone through the whole nine months in happy anticipation and now they have nothing. My heart breaks for them and, I know it has affected you really badly too so sending a hug your way.
Nothing else I can add really, such an emotional write that just got me fair and square in the guts.
9 months ago
I cringe every time I hear someone say "I'm out of the first trimester, I'm in the safe zone, now!". I've experienced and have seen too much loss to know that there is no such thing as a safe zone. Life is precious and so easily stolen away. Births that turn to immediate grief in death is one of those things I will absolutely never be able to wrap my head or my heart around. They make no sense. No one can ever prepare someone for this, even if it's experienced by someone close to you - one of those things you'll never understand truly until you've been there, God forbid.
Praying for you, your friend, and the community around her, that they would hold her up and love her fiercely. So sorry your friend had to experience something so tragic.
They say when you deliver a baby half of your feet is already below the ground. It's risky, it's painful but seeing your baby for the first time is priceless. As a mother this tore me apart. I appreciate your love for your friend. You channeled your gift so well in this piece.