Hey Alex. Wow, you had me with this one again! I'm really amazed by your talent in telling us a personal story in a creative way. I am a Christian also and I know the feeling when we sometimes feel that God is not listening anymore. Or when we start to wonder if He really was there after all. Death brings so much misery but its also the only way to enter paradise. I believe in heaven, and if you do, you should be happy now that grandma is basking in all its abundance and beauty. She died faithful to the Lord and surely great is her reward. I have learned to accept this truth also, that God always work for the good of those who love Him. He promised too that He will turn our mourning into joy. This is not easy, but not impossible. This was an honest and a great write!

Wow. This is extremely powerful. I'm so sorry for the loss of your Grandma. It's good she's no longer suffering but I know that doesn't make it any easier. Much love and peace to you, hon, especially on your path to healing.