Moa, this is all too relatable to me. I truly believe your first love (not saying it is) will always be hidden inside, i know mine is but it's difficult as he was my best friend and we were extremely close and at one point we were an item then he moved away, he came back a few years ago and it's been the same with our friendship like he never went away apart from the fact he had kids and is married lol so he's the one I can't have.,..
It's extremely sad BUT I have faith in you that you will find the love of your life if you stop searching. I also love your honesty!
Ben thanks for your comment and yeah there is always that person that we meet and give our heart to completely. Em thanks for the comment and love should be wrapped up in nothing else but absolute honesty. Mossgirl19 thanks for the comment, and I hope I'll find her .Thanks all