Depression, Anxiety attacks amongst other things that comes with it it is serious and tiring. People to this day still don't or can't understand it. They assume we are rebellious and problematic. Life really passes by and all we can do or think about is how to end it. I have learned to accept it and I cope the best way I know how. I am tired of explaining and defending myself. Counseling helped me a lot and of course I need to stay on my meds. Hugs to you and all the best