The mind is right Rei! Feel the pain - you can't avoid it anyway, and it's better than bottling it up for it come back and bite you further down the line. You will be fine ... it's a platitude, but also true. It just takes time. Well done on using your wonderful words to express your pain. Sending hugs :-) x
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Brilliant poem which expresses your pain and inner frustration so well x