Wow! You are going to be a mum. So so pleased for you.

My partner and I didn't have the chance to experience this naturally as a couple so we adopted.

Forget about the sex of your little one when the time comes. Focus on the adoration and love you will receive.

Regards

Craig

Ps. Boys are so much easier to deal with. (From a dad perspective obviously). Girls are bloody unpredictable

Judge's Comment:

Courtney has written a beautifully honest piece, not only highlighting the struggles of prenatal depression, but brutally real with something almost all expecting parents feel: secretly, most parents hope for a baby of the same gender as their own. This as a way of being able to feel like the best parent, able to guide their child the right way through tumultuous emotional and bodily changes as they’re growing up, ones that their partner (be it husband or wife) might not have masterful knowledge of. Courtney is having a boy, which everyone will tell her is beautiful and amazing and exciting, but she shares her innermost thoughts with us: she’s scared, and she feels like a bad mom already for experiencing these common thoughts. I do not have the solution for her fears or worries, but I have to say it is very brave of her to share these layers of emotions with the world. Other mothers out there might do well to read these words and know they are not alone; often, being alone is the worst part of the battle. I do hope you are able to overcome these wars in your head.

-Stephen

I wanted a girl, but got a boy. Sighs *

I can see this poem was written a while back and I hope your, mother-son bond is better.

As for my now, nearly 19 year old, I can say he was and is adorable. My disappointment was short lived.

All the best.