This IS My Life

Do you know what its like to be hurt?
To be treated like dirt?
Have you ever felt lost?
Being happy has a bigger cost.
Have you been left alone in the dark?
Ran away to the park?
I've been kicked when I was down.
I've defiantly been pushed around.
I'm on the edge of breaking down,
Everyday I wear a frown.
I've reached the boiling point,
And I'm stuck at this joint.
I may not have physical pain,
But I'm lost in this rain.
Scared I'm trapped and I'll never escape,
I've experienced mental rape.
Yet you people think it's a joke,
You just sit there and poke.
But this IS my life.
I'll never put myself under the knife.
I'm not sure if I can ever heal,
I'll just have to learn to deal.
Most people think they know me,
That they actually truly see.
But deep inside I'm bleeding,
The pain just keeps on feeding.
Will I ever be normal?
Not just another fool?
I wish I could runaway,
I hate this place in every way.
I'm sick of all my piers,
It makes me shed tears.
No one truly understands me,
I need to actually be.
Sometimes it's like I don't even exist,
I ball my hand in a fist.
I just need to get my frustration out,
I want to stand up and shout.
This is my life,
I believe I'm never going to be a wife.
Take a long look at me,
Then maybe you'll start to see.
That I've had a lonely past,
And a lonely future if it lasts.
Can't I just get over it?
Can't my light just be lit?
Or will I always be myself?
I will never live in wealth.
And yet it's still my life.