Senseless

I feel as if Ive been ringed out
and all that was me is now drained
hit by a train, left flat on my face
and i could never be the same

never the person i once was
full of hopes, smiles and life
instead i cant handle much more
although i try with all my might

try to sleep without the nightmares
try to make it through each day
you see i haven't the strength to fight
my mouth keeps finding the wrong thing to say

i didn't mean to hurt you at all
i just wanted to tell you my thoughts
it seems Ive screwed something else up
lost in a web my soul is now caught

you don't know how much i need you
I'm sorry i ever said it now
i want to go back to life before
please someone tell me how

back when i could really feel
emotions other than this pain
everyday stings and tears so much
i cant even feel ashamed

when i hug him i don't wanna let go
but to be in his arms forever more
even if i cant truly feel him here
for a while I'm lifted from the floor

as my body trembles and shakes
my pillow is gradually soaked
that need for pain i know only to well
once again is making me choke

i hope i don't give in, not again
i just wish i can become stronger
why cant you reassure me
that this ache wont last much longer