I'm Sorry, Life

I'm sorry life
I let you down
At least I tried
But I'm about to drown

My heart is torn
And I don't know why
People stare
And let out a sigh

I cry for the life
That you hoped for me
Yet things came up
And that life, I'll never see

Now all the effort I make
Feels not even worth it
All I wish is to start over
Maybe feel that love a lil' bit

But I'm scared
For what the future holds
Because all these pains
Have caused a different mold

I've lost and lived
Yet it stays the same
No place to call home
With out a name

All I can do is pray
To start it all over
Cause I feel as worthless
As a three-leafed clover

*1/27/2005
I admit, its not my best, but its what I'm feeling and it just came out.