Not Your Angel

I can't help but feel the guilt
I'm not the angel you know
How was I to know that one drop of blood
Could have disappointed you so?

I didn't ever think I could hurt
Like I did, back then
It seemed like it was working for you
I just wanted to join in

It wasn't even who I was
I don't know what I was thinking
I didn't know what to do
When you started sinking

But you have to know
The relief I went to seek
Wasn't deep at all, but shallow
It lasted but a week

I realized pretty quickly
How that road wasn't right
I saw the stupidity of it
I soon stood up to my fright

It was so close to nothing
Mine shouldn't even apply
Because I was not as bad as some
I never wanted to die

But it is tearing me apart
That I can't be your role model anymore
Why did I let it all get to me?
How did my judgment become so poor?

So I had a bad moment
My priorities were strangled
I feel bad I can't be perfect
I'm sorry you've lost your angel.