Layers of Me

You have to understand
That I don't fully trust in anyone
But you are the one I trust the most
When my life becomes undone

You've only seen the outside me
You haven't peered into my soul
Then again, no one has
It's the one thing I control

However, I've decided
That time is way past due
And that you should see the entirety
That way I can see if we'll make it through

Please don't laugh at who I am
Who I've hidden deep inside
This is the true, real me
The one I thought had died

I'm stripping off the first layer
Taking it off real slow
You'll have to excuse how long this will take
For the original has never been shown

There, the first one off
Painted on so far in the past
Covering up who I really am
We are nearing the last

It's painful for me to do this
But I need you to look
I'm letting you study my truth
Like my soul is an open book

I've never trusted anyone this much
But then again, there's no one like you
Yet another layer chipping off
As I become more true

One last layer remains
Before my heart beats genuine,
This one may take a while
It's so fitting, so divine

I'm grimacing in the pain
Of this coat I painted long ago
When I felt the need to shield my dreams
When to no one I could go.

Now you are here, staying patient
Letting me reveal in time
Hold my paintbrush for me
As I remove layers of pain and grime

Now I'm done, please don't laugh
I've never felt so bare
I'm without the warmth of my layers
But thank God you are there

You've peered inside my mind
To find all I've been and will be
I trust you more than anyone
I hope you love also the real me.