Forceful drift

Shut these eyes so tightly clasped
ill hold this ring around my heart
lie to myself from the obvious
knowing it would destroy the remains to part

a new perfect day in this dark hell
neglecting each and every last fact
wishing, pleading for so called normality
or at least for the good times back

mounting high from my desperate reach
soaring above my head, so far up
as i watch helpless of stopping fate
of stopping these heavy gates from locking shut

scared of the ideas playing to and fro
the voices laugh at my anger rising
struggle to fight, so pathetic and torn
my face wont show how my soul is dieing

i drift in a sea filled with my mind
from each thought to each feeling i feel
swimming fiercely against this rising current
pulling at wounds as they try to heal

rocking, walking, stepping around
lightly creeping so careful and quietly
why should i when I'm not the one lying
still, i cant change what your choices will be

i cant help if you don't care for the past
for the promises left empty and broken
for the consequences of your actions
of your obvious pitiful tokens

keep passing, keep pushing, keep shoving
watch this fortress slowly rise around me
cement created from fear so constant
finally, now do you see?