This girl

I need to feel and see this pain
because there is nothing new to gain
you can not help me dearest mother
and father darling don't even bother

with every inch of you i cry in fear
because you guys are so near
i can't not do anything right
you have taken everything aways from my sight

you take away my lost vision
and you make the wrong decision
i can't take any of this anymore
i want to shut the brightest door

i want to shut the door to block you
so you won't mess me up you have no clue
you have no clue that i hide lonesome dark
I wish that i was a dog who loudly barks

the bark that lets you know that your there
but to you I'm never there you just stare
you stare with a blank expression on your face
i have nothing more to hide in this lonesome place

so please i beg you go ahead and kill me
tell there is nothing left of the poor me
no one ever cared for this teenage girl
all she wants is to hide and hurl

she want to hurt so bad and then barf
because she is so fat just like an arf
she can't handle this pressure anymore
she sticks pills in her mouth more and more

she want to die so freak en bad
but she will keep on living being mad
she hates seeing her friends worry
she makes them want to cry eyes get blurry

she wants to say sorry to all she hurt
she is such a dork and she must eat dirt
she is sorry for being born in the world
the world with broken hearts untold

she can not see things clear
anymore as she sheds her red tear
the tear from her beloved heart
that is know end with this famous art

she asked herself why she has to lie
she lies because she can not try
she is tired of trying she is dying
she can't stand no more she is fating

she fades into the empty dirty dusks
where no one will see her she lost her trust
she is tired of breaking and fixing things
she needs to fix herself with these strings

she the strings used around her bare neck
where she will fall from her high wooded deck
she will not be a burden to all of them no more
she will die a quite death people can cry more

(C) DevilWith