The other me

You look at me as if I'm happy as can be
that I'm a normal teenage girl who wants to be me
that I live my life fully day to day
I have great friends, i laugh and play

I live with a family who seems to care
there are things in my life I would not dare
I would not dare to smoke and drink
doing drugs and drinking can be dangerous you can sink

sink so low you have depression now knowing yourself
abusing yourself weather it's spiritual or physical harm itself
but look and see I'm happy without them
I'm happy to have friends and those around them

but then there are days when i sit down and say
with this be the last day with my friends I pray
my life is complicated and depressing can't you see
I live in two world ones happy and the other fighting to be free

you may seem me at school cheerful having fun
but outside of school things are dark disappearing of the sun
my life is a huge black who a great mystery to me as well
I can't figure out I'm beating myself up so very will

At school I have friends there eyes never tend to fade
but when I come home in the darkness the only friend is the blade
the great pain reliever some may say
if you cut deep enough on earth you won't stay

you will become engaged in this bad habit of mine
friends ask question you just say I'm doing fine
but deep down in your soul your crying for help from anyone
you want to be replaced my your friend so you can be the number one

in your bed you lay shedding tear in the middle of the night
thinking to yourself I'm not meant to be here this is not right
then you thinking of your friends and family who care
realizing there are people who care that these feelings you can truly share

(C) Devilwithin