Maybe I should Have Just Wrote A Letter...

I love you so deep down it's tearing me apart,
I thought I'd never hear from you again,
And then I did and I felt confused for you still had my heart.
Although I missed you so, I was beginning to get used to not talking to you every now and then.

And if you do read this,
I hope you won't be too mad
You'll see it's you I miss,
And since you've been away I've been so sad.

See I didn't know how much I'd care
But thinking of you, I know that it's true,
But then one day we just stopped and it just wasn't fair!
I didn't even know what to do!

You held me up when I was down,
I don't know if you saw that
But I remember you smiling, never a frown,
And when you said stop my heart did that.

I didn't know how to make things better
I didn't know how to express what I was feeling
I thought maybe I should write a letter?
But I'm still not in the process of healing.

You forgot me so fast,
It makes me question your love
Was It real? Or was I just a thing of your past?
Am I something you can't even speak of?

See I know this may be a waste of time,
But I can't help it
I wish I could say I was doing just fine,
But I never moved, I always just sit

Hoping for a dream that may never be real,
Wishing a wish that may never come true,
Wishing on a star that once we called "Ours,"
I'm so confused I just don't know what to do.

The way I felt for you,
It was always so real,
You said we'd be together and we'd even say I do,
Losing you was not part of the deal!

Remember our song?
Remember what it says?
Now I know you were in a game just taking me along,
and you may say that it was me but I loved you in so many ways!

I never meant to hurt you,
Never meant to bring you tears,
Just wanted you to love me for everything I could give,
When we met you helped me to overcome my fears.

You brought into my life a joy I can't quite express,
And though I know I did wrong
that didn't mean I loved you any less,
You did wrong to nothing that either of us did was part of our song.

See, I'm so sorry that I hurt you
I don't expect this to make it better,
I just wanted you to know how I feel is still true.
But maybe I should have just wrote a letter...