Captivated Conjuror

I walked alone and I was happy with that.
I didn't need anybody for a matter of fact.
There were many ways to escape that life.
Those years were before you were my wife.
In memories I remember your distractions.
You would do things to me for the reactions.
You always had your ways of dealing with me.
Some of them are hard to recall from memory.
I would be upset but you would calm me down.
Hard to calm you when you stood your ground.
You made an impression on me hard to replace.
I can still see you and that sad look on your face.
I try not to dwell on the past as much; Really I do.
But something comes up like when I was with you.
Its that I don't want to forget the love we had.
I will just sit here in the dark and then get sad.
I miss your being here with me and talking.
Sometimes I feel your presence while walking.
I have tried to let you go but still I fight it.
I remember your passing but can't right it.