The airport..
the last day..
i longed to be held by you,
just like in the ocean..

I wanted to pick you up.. hold you close, let you feel this monsters heartbeat.. prove to you that i am human..

I wished the whole time to feel a small peck on the shoulder.. but i got in the way, it felt of you and norman.. so i choked back my tears, grabbed my gear and dear jane and i walked out ...

i dont regret training with you..
i loved it..
who knows.. maybe again.
but then again.. im not worth your pain..
jack.

Norman was only a pawn in my game of getting you to love me. You aren't the only one who knows how to decieve the heart. You aren't the only one who knows how to hurt people. You are just the one out of the two of us who succeeded in doing so first.

Love Her.

If norman was your pawn, well it sure as hell worked..
btw.. i didnt mean to put shoulder. i was trying to ryhme another poem when i wrote that.. i meant cheek..

love.
him

What do you mean it worked? Like it worked on you or him? I don't mean to hang on....i want to let go.....i jst dont know if you even understand how this makes me feel....i just dont know.

I can't love him.
Love Her.
For Me.

It worked as in, see what happend.. i fell for you then, im stuck on you now..
.and i dont know what to do..
i should just go to her, and turn a blind eye.. but i cant..
yet..
i stand here.. in your shadow.

Stand in my shadow, for I am in yours. The reason that you don't know what to do is because of what you have done. I have him, yes. But he knows nothing and I haven't given myself to him. I haven't even kissed him. I don't know if I will ever be able to give him what he deserves. Because of you. I wanted and still want to give it to you.

Give it to him.. dont hold out for me.. im not worth it, what else must i do to prove this?

Give him, i dont want to say it all.. like, screw him.. or somthing.. this is odd.. bang him if you want him, but idk.. give it to him...

You don't understand...I'm not giving myself up to anyone that I don't love. Love...that's you. Him...he's just something to fill the void.

If love wasn't what I had for you, then I have no damn clue what it was. All I know was that it was something. What do you think?

And every time it rains
I feel her holding me
And everytime it rains
Are the angels crying

i cant love you back the way you want me to.. i love her now..
she is the one that is here.

Okay...I know that if I was there things would be different.

But I'm not.

I tried.

I know.
So did I.
I'm sorry for all of this.

Its not you that caused this..

It was us.

No..
me.

It wasn't just you.
I loved you.
If I hadn't things would be different.

Things arn't we must fight through this... i know neither of us will be the same, but we got to do somthing.. this wont goaway you and i both know that

I don't know what to do...