I will just be me!!!

I am so unsure of who i am
and who i want to be
i feel like i need a man
but i want one to need me

i know inside why im alone again
i am just too smothered sometimes
i have a hard time turning even to friends
so im stuck hiding out in my rhymes

i tell other people suicides not the way
but i feel myself asking why not?
i love waking up to a brand new day
but i soon reevaluate the thought

too much stress, pain, and loneliness
i dont know what i want anymore!!!
i am close to settling for second best
but i know deep inside whats in store

i just dont know how i feel inside
so ill tell myself i am happy
im tired of confusion; i will not hide
i will just be me....