Dad

It started off like any other day,
A Saturday, a weekend, a day at home
I was pottering around doing some cleaning
When above my music I heard the phone

It was my mum, she was so excited
It was my dads birthday in 5 days
And she asked me if I could pick up her present
As she was busy in so many ways

I said no problem, leave it to me
I would go down town later to get it
So I continued to potter around the house
And it was about one when my life turned shit

My mum rung, she was in quite a state
She said get to the hospital as quick as you can
I asked her why and what was going on
She said its Dad, he is not a well man

So I sped and got there in 10 minutes
Where I found my mum pacing outside
I said whats happening is he alright
She didnt know, so we went inside

My brother turned up, the 3 of us together
We were told to go and wait in the family room
We sat and waited nervously
Hoping and praying that its not going to be all gloom

Suddenly, the door opened and in came a doctor
He seemed so inexperienced and young
He seemed calm and relaxed
He wanted to ask some questions, so he begun

How was dad this morning,
Had he been ok,
What had he and mum been doing
But he was only trying to delay

What he had to tell us
But on he continued asking away
And I looked at my brother
Thinking maybe this isnt the day

That dad was ok,
And it was just a scare
But how wrong I was
Cause the doctor was fully aware

Then came those inevitable words
I am sorry we done everything we could
But we couldnt save him, we tried and tried
But at the end is was just no good

I was numb I didnt know what to do
My mum collapsed and cried
And my brother punched a hole in a wall
And I just thought god my dad has just died

I tried to pacify my brother, as best I could
I tried to console my mum
I made some calls to my nan and my uncles
I just felt so totally numb

I rang my auntie, my dads sister
Cause someone had to tell my other nan, my dads mum
I told her what I knew and what had happened
She said leave it to her, but she to sounded numb

So we left the hospital a little later
Without my dad
Just with a plastic bag of possessions
My god it was just so sad

We went back to mum and dads house
A place full of so many memories
All of them good none of them sad
Memories of dad and me

10 days went by until he was late to rest
200 or more people were there
It was amazing to see how loved he was
But they were all so unaware

Of actually what he meant to me
Cause he was my best friend
Now he is no longer here
But this isnt the end

For I have a beautiful daughter
And a wonderful son
I know how proud he would have been of both
And with both he would have had fun

So 6 years and I still havent grieved
Maybe this year will be the start
To help me deal with the situations
And heal this space in my heart

I love you dad, my best friend and mentor
I will never forget you, you will be with me forever
If I become half the man you were
I would be happy cause I couldnt do any better