Another Lie

I am breaking down,
I am falling apart.
I hoped that this would never happen,
Now I have a broken heart.

Now these tears stream down my face,
And I am telling you right now I am not okay.
I am just pulling myself along,
To make it through yet another painful day.

I am not happy anymore,
I always want to cry.
I wish someone could help me through...
I wish my smile was not a lie.

I want someone to love me.
I want someone to take my hand.
But no one seems to get me,
Nor do they understand.

Why can't I just be perfect?
Why can't anything just go right?
Why can't I stop,
Crying myself to sleep at night.

I have tried to stay strong.
And I have tried to hold on like nothing is bothering me.
But now it is getting really hard.
Can't anybody see?

I feel so alone sometimes.
And you don't even know I do.
I feel so alone sometimes,
And all I want is you.

But that is never going to happen.
So why should I even try?
I want to say I'm over you.
But that would be another lie.