I could feel your pain. I know your pain. I'm so sorry you feel such anguish and discontent. I do not pity you, far from it. I am simply acknowledging your pain and thoughts you suffer with. I too used to want to break every mirror and I'd curse every reflection. I started turning my focus from exterior to interior. Little by little I started to find acceptance and eventually love for the person I am. Reconciliation for my outward self kind of just happened naturally as my internal thought process changed my perception of true beauty (the beauty that is seen and cherished by those that love you). Your a gifted writer! Already in touch with the why you feel what you do. As well as being able to express it. I'm sure you have many amazing qualities! Embrace the good in "who" you are with in and thru grace one day you'll look in that mirror and see radiant beauty!

Below is something I've learned about beauty, I hope it encourages you and I hope my comments are not perceived or received negatively. Let your inner light shine! -Jay

"All long for beauty whether it be outward, inward or a combination of both. True beauty is a result of a bunch of awkward phases all fused together. Learning to enjoy just where one is will breed contentment, allowing acceptance of oneself. Thus permitting beauty to flourish in the present, manifesting beauty in the here and now." -Jay Pierce

I also feel like this sometimes, but no matter what you look like in the outside, as long as your beautiful in the inside you will still outshine those who only have the physical beauty but has ugly hearts, 'cause the beauty in the outside fades in time but a kind heart remains forever.
We have to accept ourselves for who we are, because god made everyone special and beautiful in their own ways, it just takes the right person to see it :')

i think your really beautiful <3

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I understand this poem alittle to well. I love it. This is a great write and an amazing poem