Depression was my escape

It's... Hard... Letting go of the depression I've known and grown to adore for the past 5 years... It's been my only escape from life for a long time. I've turned to cutting in the past, each cut for a lover who's hurt me, for a betrayal of a friend, a memory that's haunted me... I don't know if I WANT to leave it behind me...

Leave it trust me i know the pain and the hurt been there done that but i have put it BEHIND me and walked on i want to be better i WANT to live the life i choose and it DOESN'T have sadness in there the regret that i had i let it go babe and you should too!

I don't cut anymore, but I do still cling to the darkness.. I find serenity and sanctity in its embrace

Good no more cutting BUT find another source i don't care stay in the middle trust me i was once darkness little princess and trust me it was not everything that i AM NOW lol

I can't say I would've stopped if I hadn't promised someone very close to me

The same goes to me so don't worry i loved someone ENOUGH to stop... he was everything i dreamed of and more but alas the past is the past...

Best friend and woudve been lover... Very concerned for him too

Well worry about him and bring him back from the darkness love it's not that hard...well that's a lie BUT you can do it if i could

He doesn't want to be saved, he said he would stop only if he could find happiness again... And he told me a way to do that... Um, its not in my best interest

Cutting, pot, s**, or all three at the same time?

He wants me with him

As in dead? hmmmm what is the answer that POPS into my wee little head.....hmmm NO!!!

No as in WITH him, as in gf

Hmmmmmmmm now here's a touch question is that what YOU want? i'm asking truthfully sweetie!

Why would I? I'm perfectly happy now. The happiest I've been in months.

Do you mean that? illusions makes us blind to everything else i should know i lived in one for YEARS

I do mean it, i did something today that i wouldn't have been able to if it weren't for you

Awh what did you do babe? was it fun? was it telling ummm what's a name i can use in the mainboards? lol eh who cares what did you do babe?

Hug and laugh with whatserface

HUG??? you mean kingkong with implants? hmmm well i would've done the opposite and pushed her by her hair to her man and told her that's your place love!

I still want to be her friend, love, I can just see past what she's done

Lol okay babe look past her wrongdoings BUT remember i'm the gf and i would LOVE to rub it in in her face that's if she could get it through her brain i'm better in poetry and i could give her my talent and a little of my heart!!!

Lol should I tell her something for you? You really DO have a bigger heart than she does, which is yet another reason I'm happy being with you

Awh*blushes* lol that's sweet!!!! :) and hmmmm what can i say hmmmm oh i know NO HUGGING that beach hugs you on PURPOSE >.<

How so? And I hugged HER

This is the main board i can't say what's in my mind and trust me the imagination works WONDERS lol but oh well just hug her it probably took her by surprize i know i would be if i wanted a girl but couldn't have since she didnn't want me then she hugs me! i'd be like what?????? lol but i guess it's cause of me lol XP

You have a valid point though lol

I've had those thoughts too babe but i've had exs lol :) lol and be happy for me?

Of course :)

Then it's okay now! :)