But I know that can't happen for our cards have been dealt.
So I'll hold the memory close in my mind,
and keep it a secret too.

^ i know how this feels. sometimes it is better to let them go when you can't have them. and it always ALWAYS hurts to do so. secrets hurt. no love hurts more. hold your head high and it will all turn out ok. great poem, hun. keep up the amazing work. god bless