I wish i could take your hand now, when you need me the most but I know God's telling me its not time. Seek patience and He will give it to you. Hang on bay, one day...one day. I'm sitting here at home right now. i could cry myself to sleep w/ just the thought of not being with you. But instaed I try to erase it from my mind because I know I cant do anything about it now. Sometimes it feels so good though. Just to cry and wish with everything I am that you'll somehow come in my door and wipe all my tears away. Take me into a whole new world where we can be together. Its so hard living without you but I know its what we have to do. I hope you dont think I'm shutting you out bc thats the last thing I want. I miss you. I still hope its you when my phone says I have a new message but then I remember I told you not to txt me anymore. Im sorry. its the best thing for us right now. I dont know why and I dont know how I just know it is. Trust me on this. Please...come to me and tell me everythings going to be okay, hug me and never let me go. I hate I sound so desperate but I just miss you so much. I just wanted to let you know...

Ah wow...heatherr

I wrote this one of those days after you told me you didnt want to talk to me anymore