Sorry, just I can not hold myself for commenting. :P

I liked a lot of your explanation at the end. I give you a high five for honesty and openess. It always pleases me from begin till end.

It is healthy to estimate and think our own relationship to divine.

Me, myself... I had a lot of similar thoughts in some point of my life. I was not convinced in Christianity teaching and when that base was shaking I left my religious thoughts for a while but then I discovered my own thing and things REALLY made sense to me.

Like previous comment said: there r something divine in us and environment exists. That is what I would call God's presence. And seeing God and his goodness...I would apply this sentence:"beauty is the eye of beholder".

I was surely pleased to read some deep thoughts from you. They can reveal a lot from the writer.

Nice writing. :) Keep it up ;)

Noor