Good to have you back DD, this is a profound write, seeming a taunt of some past experience and a darkness that I can not put a finger on, But I am reminded of a Thespian. Peace and Blessings

"Who Am I?"

I'm thinking: Dixiedaisy's baby......

On a more technical note:

"the why's, what if's and not's...."

do not need the apostrophes here
as they are plurals rather than possessives...

otherwise...
this really is a rather brilliant delivery..
enough imagery for a one-act play, I think...

Thank You immensely for your amazing words re 'mid-September'...
reflecting exactly what one could hope for....

I'm just passin' thru briefly again in, hopefully, a timely, appropriate way.....
great-grandbaby calls often...;~)
still got diapers to change...chuckle...
yay!

This is beautiful, and sad and deep and everything i wish i could convey.
Its a truly remarkable piece of work.
Well done.

Wow!!! very powerful indeed.