I like the idea of it
I think that you could
use more imagery
explain a little more
Detail it. I know how it is.
To want to end my life because I am nothing
without the love of my life. I'd do anything. I'd want to free him but I know I can't. But yeah detail it and it will be super.

Sounds like some short thoughts you had swirling in your mind, hopefully soon you'll be able to put them into stanzas & expand on your feelings with more description, if you ever need any help just let me know! It's a nice start.