Suicide by love, is a dark and deeply constructed idea. Emotions associated with the thought of the ultimate self destruction are all over this poem, even if they are disguised and subtle. But subtle pain, the kind of pain no one else sees, is the real thing. And that's what I want, real emotions. You have taken me to a deep place with this poem. Thank you. And you've been gone awhile from this site, hopefully you'll come back someday.