I've been sitting here for three minutes drawing blanks on what to say here. It's a good poem, has a lot of heart and feeling wrapped up on it. It's just so saddening and sullen. I don't know whether to critique the poem or try to say something to help you out of the dumps. All I can say is, take life by the ropes, its meant to be a ride you control, and not a roller coaster that forces you through its ups and downs.