You are not stupid. If you love him the way you say, afterall you spent two years
together, then go after him. Talk to him,
tell him you made a mistake.

Its actually a girl lol and i cant, i broke her heart now shes got a new gf, i have to work with her everynight .. its so painfull! we dont talk or anything! :(

It seems that you really love that person..but you are not stupid..you just love him and that is not your fault so don't blame yourself..good written poem:)