I have to say that I think this is one of the best poems I have seen from you.

The fact that you have truly opened up and the emotions pouring out of this is so raw, vivid and real I think has made your poem more in depth.

Firstly I am sorry that you are feeling like this. I know how hard it can be to deal with depression and anxiety. I have never thought of taking my own life but I have known people who have tried and who has thought about it. For me if it had worked and they didn't survive when they did I would be devastated, but it's not about me, it's about them. I really hope that they could get the help that they needed. I really do hope that you do as well. To see those words on the screen is heartbreaking. I am sorry.

As for your poem the title drew me in. I wondered what it was that you could be ashamed of, was it something you had done? Now I know it is more like what you are thinking of doing.

I love the last two lines, I think this poem represents something that you needed to get off your chest, something you felt you needed to write and there is no shame in that at all.

Unfortunately I have no nominations left so I am hoping someone can nominate this because it deserves to win. Like I said, best poem I've seen from you so far.

x

Typo: craziness, psychosis

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I have to agree with everything Liz said. This could be your best poem to date. The imagery and emotion was well balanced all throughout, and the message was heartbreaking but you've managed to make something beautiful out of a sad situation in your life.
Depression is something I myself have been battling or rather, have battled for the most part of my life. And right now, I've finally convinced myself that I've conquered it, but on the other hand, I still think it's still in me.

'While others are hanging on tied to life
I am willfully trying to end mine'
^This part really broke my heart, I told you Dagmar: you are an inspiring person for me, and I don't ever want to lose you. I don't have much experience in life, but since then, I found poetry and it became my outlet. Please hold on.

'I am ashamed and not even sure
what made me write this'
^Don't be ashamed, this is poetry in its rawest and purest and most beautiful form. Never give up.

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As for the nomination, I only have one left this week. Agh! Beautiful poems this week. But I'll vote by Friday, and it'll probably this one if no one has voted for it :)

Keep writing! Don't ever be ashamed of that; it's your talent.
-Xanthe

Poetry in its purest form
that is what this is
You say everything some of us have felt and been through
I know depression is hard and sometimes we don't know why are so sad
But then you need to look at the things you enjoy(ed) and find new reasons to stick around

I don't know your story but it must a heartbreaking because this poem struck me into the center of my being.
I hope someone nominates this because it deserves to be read by everyone.

5/5

Hmm this is an amazing write
i love it some times we dont know why we wrote some things
Maybe feelings in us want to be released
Or just an image poped up in mind
And some times we just write random ideas then find them connected
Overall great read I enjoyed alot contains lots of darkness and saddness in it
5/5 keep writing =)

No need to be ashamed of what you write down. It takes a lot of courage to write these things, and on that merit alone you get top marks from me.

I have gone through the same thing so we can feel ashamed together. The only difference between me and you is the definition of "ashamed"-I looked up something different :(

Your emotions that you put into this poem is astounding in my opinion-I felt every word in my soul. The part that I can relate to the most is the fifth stanza (or section).

I just wanted to praise you on your courage for writing this. I have a feeling that it must have been a relief for you to finally let this out. Another thing that I wanted to let you know is that there is no need to feel ashamed. May God bless you and yours.

5/5 :)

You wrote this because it came from the heart, and sometimes those feelings will overpower the mind and force the writer to write... because thats how it happens... I agree with all the above has stated, I do believe this is your best poem to date. This was marvelous Dagmar!

Depression and anxiety,
It's tough to deal with those two specially if they are both combined. But it can be done.
Most of the times, we just need to do some stretching, I forget that myself. But when I do stretch, I start feeling better. The tension that accumulates slowly goes away, not all of it but the majority. And that takes away part of the anxiety as for depression, I'm not sure, but I guess being surrounded by people and talking about it. Getting involve in different activities that you like and not being alone can help.