This poem is an absolute stunner, Saff! It is extremely dark and sinister, worthy of the very best of the world's horror writers! Almost Edgar Allan Poe! You know that I am aware of the context of this one, and I know it is sadly how you often feel. It is a stunningly well written reflection of what most people don't see when they interact with you. Taking that apart, I hope you can also see what I mean about the quality of it as a piece of horror writing, and won't be offended by that statement. Both contexts give me the shivers here, Saffie, and I wish I could take yours away from you and make you whole! Genuine poetic genius!