Oh Sherree, this is heart rending! That feeling of disbelief at a death is perfectly expressed here ...
"I want to call death a liar"
Yes! I really get that. Any death is hard, but the untimely death of a young person is just impossible to accept. It's not the natural order of things and is the hardest grief of all. Well done with this and sorry for your loss if this is written from your experience :-) x