It’s easy to compliment the language in this piece although sometimes you risk alienating the reader with the abstract imagery. You could afford to be a little more concrete and uninteresting in places! Your writing is mature but erratic in its prosier places, and I don’t mean that as an insult; it feels like you could steady your writing a little, and let your language breathe.
You obviously read a lot of talented writers - your poetry is accomplished, and you will continue to be a breath of fresh air on this site. This poem I had to read a few times, and I get the feeling of confliction, and infatuation - the realisation that something is not healthy but pursued anyway.