This gave me real chills!! I dont know why but I read this while whispering, very impactful!
I truly hope that writing and sharing helps you at least a little bit.

Sharing your experience like this brings your emotions to life. I felt your terror as you describe the physical response of him. The horror that he is there with you, only to then realise it's a hallucination. But then the repeated realisation is his prophecy may come true.

Em, this grabbed and shook me. ((Hugs)) xx

Punchy end line, Em, I have to say. I was going to make some stupid crack about my covid jab, the fever and resultant hallucinations it caused and then realised that this really wasn't the time or place. Forgive me for even mentioning it then. In honesty, when abuse like this is being highlighted more and more, you couldn't have picked a better time to post this.
A quick pointer for line three: 'silhouettes of my past HAUNT me' I think there.

All the very best as ever,
Ben