I know how it feels when everything loses value, and you feel really tired!! I really dont know what to say except hang in there you’ll get through it, you’re not alone everyone fails and messes up. As cliche as it sounds, but thats really how we learn and grow up.
I missed being active, I’ll try to comment more :)
I guess it’s a blessing that with some devotion.. blessing your pain with enough not only pain hope and ability to be driven to continue trying to put the shattered pieces back together to mend your heart for an inconceivable beautiful life you haven’t experienced or possibly can’t imagine. You can learn to achieve better