A Regret

There was this girl, beautiful at first, turned out to be a b**ch.
Cheated on me,
I didn't cheat on her one bit.
Still miss her, wish I didn't give a damn.
I've lost her, she left after treating me bad.

Others close to me knew what she had done.
Decided not to say anything,
Decided to pretend.
Thought I'd go mad, thought I'd loose control.
Depressing when you realise, they don't know me at all.
Betrayed by my closest of friends except one.

Wish I didn't open up my heart to you,
You swallowed me up, chewed me about and spat me out.
Because of you I'm back to square one,
You've made me even more aware of my biggest fear.
The chance of dying in this life, without someone I hold dear
I knew we would split up, just didn't expect it to be so bad
Didn't ever think I would find myself regretting, all those moments that before made me so glad.
Wish I'd just left it alone from the start, like I have done so many times in the past.
Wish I'd never met you at all, not been so blind.

But I didn't go mad, I kept control.
Did the exact opposite of what my friends thought.
I'm now still the man that people thought,
Ashame we didn't last as long as you said we would.
I'm going to swallow all my hatred to save my pride.
Keep it all locked up, hush it away, out of sight.
To unleash it on the rugby pitch or when the earth trembles beneath my feet
And I race the currents of wind in the air along those empty streets.