Wow. All I can say is wow. I seriously do not know what to tell you, mostly because I could have written this myself. You asked people to comment with advice so I'm guessing that you mean what you said in this poem. I think I know exactly how you feel...and I'm also wondering what I should do myself. I'm sorry I'm not much help.

Thanks I think I'm going to do just that.

Love ya,
Nikki