I think you should be afraid. I'm not sure what you were thinking about when you wrote this, but what I was thinking about as I read it is that you're starting to not care about anything, and the things that you used to stress over and the feelings that you were scared of, you've realized that you're going to have to face them. But the fact that you don't care would just send you deeper into those feelings, as opposed to if you were scared you would fight your way out of that darkness. I don't know, that just how I read it. I hope it makes sense :-S You did a great job with the imagery, and how you talked about your eyes being pulled back, it gave it an even more eery feeling to it, because I could imagine someones eyelids being torn back O.o Great write m'love, I love you!

Take Care,
Renee