After the first I let go

After the first I'm deleting you from my life the things you do will not effect me after the first I'm not going to be looking after you after the first after the first I'm saying good bye for good UN less you stop all this hate and all this bull shit and all the lies and all the sneaking around but after the first I don't care Any more, I want to but I just have to say good bye for my self not to make you happy not to make your parents happy for me so I don't have to Carrie you every day so I can stop looking after you so I can move on and be happy for my self and be happy with moving on after the first if you don't contacted me and in some way its all over all the memories all the pain all the laughter all the good times the last 2 years are gone from my memory just like all the other things that I blocked out Every thing gone on the first unless you don't want them gone then you will find some way to contacted me by poem or phone or email or something. But on the first I let go for good.