You do write very well. You say what is one your mind and thank you for sharing your gift with us. I can tell from your writings that you are in a lot of pain and I am sorry that you feel so aweful, that is not even a way to desribe how depression and hopeless can make a person feel but I see how young you are and I just want you to know that you do have a future. Keep striving for that future. Hang in there!
Take Care
Paula